The King.. Part 3 (or is it only 2)

how the non-existent relationship between me and Vic grew to an even bigger non-existing relationship..

“Tuesday, January 25, 2011
14.29pm...

A client called me to make some pics in Guayaquil, Ecuador on Feb 12th and 13th . And the place I want to go is Montañita (2 hours form guayaquil, surf, beach, sun) and I'm planning to stay there for 4 days. So .... Let´s go! ONLY IF You wanna go with me. I know you have an strict schedule to go Argentina, Falls, everything bu I'll really love to go with you. let me know.

Abrazo,
Viti”


WHAT?!?! did he seriously just ask me to meet him? I had to immediately write to Kasia to OK it with her first.. because I would have to leave her for about a week.. this was her amazing response:

Kasia:
“of course chica!!! no problem at all! I am doing really fine on my own, adn as much as I am looking forward to travel together, i know that I ll be fine without you for few days:))
mind you it will cost you arm and leg to fly from argentina or brasil do guyaquil I am afraid. and we would need to think carefully exactly where from and where to you'd need to get your flight. I actually would be happiest to be on the beach in this time, but I;m not sure if we could make it till this date to the beach. whatever, we'll see. no worries - you're given holidays from our holidays:)))))”

but after 2 hours of searching for flights.. it seemed helpess.. everything was too expensive and too difficult, like Kasia had warned, so I wrote him to tell him that after all that, I may not be able to join him afterall.. and he wrote this:

Vic:
“I wanna see you, in a maddly way , lets see some options and if we cant do it, i will meet you in another place

1. what is the next stop after lima?
2. How long each stop?
3. does she want to go to Ecuador?
4. How much extra do you need to make ir (from bs-guayaquil)?
5. How long you will be in BsAs?
6. Where are you going after BsAs”

and when we knew for sure it wasn’t going to work.. this was our dialogue:

Jess:
“in all seriousness.. it breaks my heart to know i cannot go meet you in Ecuador but i know you will not leave me heart broken for very long... thats what i like about you “

Vic:
“No, I wont.
I'm gonna plan a good thing
i'm checking some stuff now.
i'm patient, but I'm not lazy.”

Then only a few days later.. he wrote me a whacky email and which I responded in a cryptic way telling him to say whats on his mind and tell the truth, this is the time to do it.. and his response was…

Vic:
Friday 1/28/11

Hey little princess!
What a crazy week, a lot of things happened and some changes are coming.

Yesterday when I wrote the email to you, it was a kind of writing that I do: I start writing without thinking, just writing whatever is passing through my spagethi-hair head and then I pressed “send message” without reviewing. It´s a good exercise because you are not trying to correct the text or trying to sound good. When you write in this way you can realize things…

So, when I re-read the email, I realized that:

- I don’t want to hide my feelings, it doesn’t make any sense, even if you get scary.
- I’ve been dating a bunch of girls the last years, but I don’t feel a connection, maybe i´m picky, maybe I’m not ready, maybe they weren’t what I was looking for.
- When I knew you, I start wanting to do special things, like the box, write messages, etc. I really love when somebody makes me feel like that. :) And the last time it happened was some years ago. Don’t think i do all these things with every single girl, I have work to do!
- So, I’m fucking crazy about you
- I don’t know everything about you, but I want to.
- As you know, I’m not in a rush and I want you to go through your path: The travel, brasil, “making babies”, jajaja, and all that. You know that I’m a little crazy, the day you were leaving from Medellín I was about to ask you to stay with me, (actually I did with signs at the metro, lol), for how long? I don’t know, maybe years if we feel the flow. But I don’t like to force things and change people’s plan, because I love when the people has a life: friends, hobbies, plans, dreams and follow them. I can wait while I follow my plans, then people start making common plans but no leaving theirs.
- I don’t know if I’m ready to start what I think we can start, but definitely I want to try.
- I want (actually I'wll love) to go with you to a travel, go to the beach, walk, take photos, cook, dance, fight, share the bubble. I’m thinking in 10 days off with you, and have some places in my mind, when you finished your travel and if for that time you and I want to.
- I have the veredict, princess.

Lollipop ah? Cheesy Little messy jessy.

Viti


As I told Susan about the message.. just reading his messages are like reading my own. He is chaotic, excitable and with absolutely no direction in his thoughts and how he expresses himself. He lets his emotions run wild and isn’t afraid of the consequences.. and he shouldnt be, because they are good. ☺

In only a few days I have had more experiences with Victor then I have had with people I spend months if not years with. As he said, 2 days felt like 20 days.. and this is a good thing.

so.. just another whirlwind romance? or maybe something more? friends have written to tell me not to fall into the same trap as in the past.. but hell, if traps have this kind of reward.. it cant be THAT bad.. and also i truly feel that i can never stop trying... or i may just happen to miss it. more to come.. i hope!